Ministry
Saturday I woke up and I had this sentence spinning round and round in my heart not even my head.. I was able to feel this, it was almost like my whole body was in rhythm with the meaning....
I want you to quit ministry and accept a job at life...
At first hand I thought ....
:::OK this is now it, God is for once really concerned with my sanity and is now giving me a break...I think you will only understand if you read the last three post on this blog, that I hit a rough spot and really did not want to be associated with anything and everything called church or Christianity
But then I had a glimpse back to the Friday evening when Coert and I visited the video shop very late and met the lady working in the shop sitting on the tables at Steers chatting to the lady that is the cashier at the Steers, both of them was having a smoke break. I do not even smoke but I had a burning desire to go and sit with them, to get to know them.
I suddenly I knew this is what God is saying:
See, for so long many people a know left their dreams to be in full time ministry. Many teenagers I know are confused about the dreams they have for studies and future jobs because it is just not noble....If you want to become a fashion designer you are vain....how can you as a Christian be part of a world that is full of gays, promiscuity, wild parties, drugs and a not so stable ethic style of doing business?
I do not know about you reading this. But does this sound familiar? Have you been part of this? Have your dreams been replaced with something more noble, more worthy? This teaching I received for so long in church, the condemnation that grew in my heart of wanting to chase my own dreams whilst the world is dying.....
But today I am thankful for yet another human burden that was lifted. You see because so often we put our Christianity in compartments...now we worship, now we teach, now we reach out and now we have quite time with God...
I do not believe that this is God's heart. I do not believe you have to give up your dreams to become a conformed, cookie shaped christian moving around in circles looking for the lost. I believe His heart was in LIFE...in everyday, every moment, every thought and every motion. I believe He prepared the soil for you where He placed your dream the day He created you. I want to encourage you birth the designer in you! Birth the editor in you! Hold on to your dream.
I believe that I should now get to a place where I spent my time with LIFE, not confined to the 7 hours at school or the Sunday service. And I do not want this to be a thought that I've put on paper, I want this to be me. I really desire to get to know the lady at the video store, I want to know here for what she has been rejected for, I want to know her for what she has lost hope for. I really desire to grow this heart for people, but I know this is hard and I need to be moved by grace and humility. I just know I do not want this to be vain or a thought... I must confess I do not know how to do this...I am just trusting that God will see this humble heart in me, that He will accept my repentance of judgements past... so I am holding on not sure what I will do when the opportunity hit me...but having faith...that God might just use a women like me...
Please read the following scriptures: 1 Tim 4 & Jerm 29:1-14
I want you to quit ministry and accept a job at life...
At first hand I thought ....
:::OK this is now it, God is for once really concerned with my sanity and is now giving me a break...I think you will only understand if you read the last three post on this blog, that I hit a rough spot and really did not want to be associated with anything and everything called church or Christianity
But then I had a glimpse back to the Friday evening when Coert and I visited the video shop very late and met the lady working in the shop sitting on the tables at Steers chatting to the lady that is the cashier at the Steers, both of them was having a smoke break. I do not even smoke but I had a burning desire to go and sit with them, to get to know them.
I suddenly I knew this is what God is saying:
See, for so long many people a know left their dreams to be in full time ministry. Many teenagers I know are confused about the dreams they have for studies and future jobs because it is just not noble....If you want to become a fashion designer you are vain....how can you as a Christian be part of a world that is full of gays, promiscuity, wild parties, drugs and a not so stable ethic style of doing business?
I do not know about you reading this. But does this sound familiar? Have you been part of this? Have your dreams been replaced with something more noble, more worthy? This teaching I received for so long in church, the condemnation that grew in my heart of wanting to chase my own dreams whilst the world is dying.....
But today I am thankful for yet another human burden that was lifted. You see because so often we put our Christianity in compartments...now we worship, now we teach, now we reach out and now we have quite time with God...
I do not believe that this is God's heart. I do not believe you have to give up your dreams to become a conformed, cookie shaped christian moving around in circles looking for the lost. I believe His heart was in LIFE...in everyday, every moment, every thought and every motion. I believe He prepared the soil for you where He placed your dream the day He created you. I want to encourage you birth the designer in you! Birth the editor in you! Hold on to your dream.
I believe that I should now get to a place where I spent my time with LIFE, not confined to the 7 hours at school or the Sunday service. And I do not want this to be a thought that I've put on paper, I want this to be me. I really desire to get to know the lady at the video store, I want to know here for what she has been rejected for, I want to know her for what she has lost hope for. I really desire to grow this heart for people, but I know this is hard and I need to be moved by grace and humility. I just know I do not want this to be vain or a thought... I must confess I do not know how to do this...I am just trusting that God will see this humble heart in me, that He will accept my repentance of judgements past... so I am holding on not sure what I will do when the opportunity hit me...but having faith...that God might just use a women like me...
Please read the following scriptures: 1 Tim 4 & Jerm 29:1-14
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