Missed

I have a longing in my heart that is constantly growing. I long to see the heart of God manifest, through His children on earth. I long to be the first to do this, but the more I look at the lady in the mirror, the more I have to accept the fact, that I just see part. I struggle to understand how to manifest His heart, because His heart I believe has very little to do with what I have been taught.. I know that the time is here, I know God is ready to birth this in His children..I just can't help to wonder if I am prepared enough to find His heart, broken in so many places.